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i am trying to come up with the words to articulate this mindset that has taken a hold of me

i am trying to define this feeling that spills from my being

i am trying to color in this picture, the picture is not bound by design so how do i stay in the lines

living on the edge sounds fun but falling sounds like death and death is the ultimate test of life bc if you can live while dead well then its possible you did something right or everything wrong...this space bt right and wrong...good and bad....this contrast that builds this balance is where i am

i am in the middle of opposites and still am unbalanced...

i am utterly confused and i completely understand

i am in the middle of a see saw watching the scale tip yet i have no control over it

i am an active observer whose action is observation

i am at the climax of my game and the bottom of my ability

i am blooming in winter and unseen bc of rain

i am seen in spring and unappreciated bc unique is no longer my name

i am a brunt orange fall leave drifting on a summer time breeze

i am the sweet sound of a blue birds song gagged by retro

i am new life born to only be picked and plucked and molded into the "perfect" clone

i am all that is great processed to be labeled and sold

i am perfect conformed...now unknown

nonetheless

I

AM

therefore

i will fight against becoming soundless emotion

i will force the ink that marks my truth to print on all growths of nature

i will honor my creator with flavor

i will move to the beat of the universe and harmonize accordingly

i will answer to the sun, dance to the wind, trust the water, and evolve as earth

i will

because

i am

...

a qUOtE

tHIs IS a qUOtE i LiKEd...LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!

WE are NOT huMAN BEINGS HAVING A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE

WE aRe SPIRITUAL BEINGS HAVING A HUman EXPERIENCE

eNough saId...

RIGHT ON TIME

yesterday i was without a phone because my charger was left at the last place i visited(my moms)
i was waiting on a delivery....
yesterday i was right on time.
i was not checking the clock every 3 seconds and trying to catch up to the rest of the world and there ticking and ticking fast or slow moving life styles...
my world was perfect yesterday
when i was there then whatever was going to happen was suppose to happen
i just was moving to the day at a pace that was customized to me and my destiny.....
i was relaxed not trying to control everything but i had complete faith...
i was moving at my own beat...it was like walking with no worry down a California freeway in a bee line and being thankful for such a "nice" breeze.

my phone works again...
...and...
the past and future have become all i experience
...because...
the present has become my Secretary taking notes and delivering messages...
my presence has lost its voice....i want it back again...


i am ready to live in the now...
i am happy rt now....
i completely trust and am sure that i will always be right on time....!!!!!!!!