OPTIONS AND CHOICES ARE VERY DIFFERENT THINGS

WE HAVE BEEN DECEIVED YES, YET AGAIN WE HAVE BEEN CONVINCED OF A LIE IT OUGHT TO BE AN URBAN MYTH ONLY THE HAVE NOTS BELIEVE IT THE ONES WHO FEAR BECAUSE THEY WERE TOLD TO BE SCARED THE ONES THAT TAKE ANY WORD FOR IT BC ASKING MORE QUESTIONS IS A CHORE THAT THEY FEEL PRIVILEGED TO NOT ENDURE THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE IMPRISONED THEIR ABILITY AND HAVE BECOME DEPENDENT ON APPROVAL FROM THY ENEMY I AM NOT SAYING THAT THIS SYNDROME ISN'T EASY TO BECOME VICTIM TO BUT I AM BEGGING FOR THE DESIRE TO WANT TO REFRAIN FROM ALWAYS BEING A VICTIM CHOOSE YOU ROLL WISELY INF ACTUATED WITH THE HERO WHY BC YOU HAVE BEEN BRAIN WASHED TO THINK THAT'S SOMETHING U CANT BE ARE U CURIOUS EVER WONDERING HOW things SEEM so SIMILAR but have completely DIFFERENT meanings THIS IS THE TEST OF WHIT ALL THAT IS HAS BEEN AND everyTHING IS DESTINE TO PURPOSE DID YOU THINK THAT THE UNIVERSE COULDN'T BE SARCASTIC OR HUMOROUS WILL IT AMAZE YOU TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THE AIR,EARTH,WATER AND FIRE DAZZLE YOU WITH PERSONALITY YOUR FRIEND YOUR ENEMY YOUR TEACHER YOUR MENTOR YOUR FAMILY ALL THAT EXIST FULFIL A ROLL YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THAT COMPLACENT IS NOT THE PATH OPTIONS AND CHOICES ARE VERY DIFFERENT THINGS THE OPTION IS THE CONFUSION PRESENTED BY TEMPTATION THAT WILL ONLY HOLD YOU STILL THE CHOICE IS THE INTUITION THE MOVES YOU ACCORDING TO GOOD WILL THERE IS ONLY ONE CHOICE AND GUARANTEED TO BE A MILLION OPTIONS

...consciously affected....

its like the first cold fresh water that u splash on your face the moment you awake

its like the first burst of flavor that fills you mouth and seduces you taste bugs with each bite you take

it like trying on your favorite jeans right after they've been washed

it like standing in the shower with no more to do but enjoy the massage you receive from the pressure of the water rubbing every curve, even caressing your feet

its the smile you make on a friends face, a moment that cant be replaced

its like holding hand to finger of a new born baby to care giver

its blind vision

its ...

its ...

its ...

its ...

its...its the difference between believing and knowing

its understanding...

its the appreciation of the things given and the moment u hesitate to take ; you thank

its when u recognized that you witness daily real miracles and then humbled acknowledging u r the walking, living, breathing, giving, taking, stealing, killing, birthing, nurturing, loving example.....

consciously be affected

i am...

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i am trying to come up with the words to articulate this mindset that has taken a hold of me

i am trying to define this feeling that spills from my being

i am trying to color in this picture, the picture is not bound by design so how do i stay in the lines

living on the edge sounds fun but falling sounds like death and death is the ultimate test of life bc if you can live while dead well then its possible you did something right or everything wrong...this space bt right and wrong...good and bad....this contrast that builds this balance is where i am

i am in the middle of opposites and still am unbalanced...

i am utterly confused and i completely understand

i am in the middle of a see saw watching the scale tip yet i have no control over it

i am an active observer whose action is observation

i am at the climax of my game and the bottom of my ability

i am blooming in winter and unseen bc of rain

i am seen in spring and unappreciated bc unique is no longer my name

i am a brunt orange fall leave drifting on a summer time breeze

i am the sweet sound of a blue birds song gagged by retro

i am new life born to only be picked and plucked and molded into the "perfect" clone

i am all that is great processed to be labeled and sold

i am perfect conformed...now unknown

nonetheless

I

AM

therefore

i will fight against becoming soundless emotion

i will force the ink that marks my truth to print on all growths of nature

i will honor my creator with flavor

i will move to the beat of the universe and harmonize accordingly

i will answer to the sun, dance to the wind, trust the water, and evolve as earth

i will

because

i am

...

a qUOtE

tHIs IS a qUOtE i LiKEd...LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!

WE are NOT huMAN BEINGS HAVING A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE

WE aRe SPIRITUAL BEINGS HAVING A HUman EXPERIENCE

eNough saId...

RIGHT ON TIME

yesterday i was without a phone because my charger was left at the last place i visited(my moms)
i was waiting on a delivery....
yesterday i was right on time.
i was not checking the clock every 3 seconds and trying to catch up to the rest of the world and there ticking and ticking fast or slow moving life styles...
my world was perfect yesterday
when i was there then whatever was going to happen was suppose to happen
i just was moving to the day at a pace that was customized to me and my destiny.....
i was relaxed not trying to control everything but i had complete faith...
i was moving at my own beat...it was like walking with no worry down a California freeway in a bee line and being thankful for such a "nice" breeze.

my phone works again...
...and...
the past and future have become all i experience
...because...
the present has become my Secretary taking notes and delivering messages...
my presence has lost its voice....i want it back again...


i am ready to live in the now...
i am happy rt now....
i completely trust and am sure that i will always be right on time....!!!!!!!!

success

I feel like i am already everything that i am going to be and than i blink and something changes...i am amazed that i can still change and excited to explore my new self until this self is old and i gain a new ripple to exhaust....i believe my success is based on my ability to evolve and adapt to what is now my new circumstance....challenge me....test my understanding and push repeatedly against my buttons until i am forced to transform into a superior version of myself....who am i if i am not changing..than i was.... and if i become past tense then i am no longer becoming and that is not success...so lie to me so that i may learn eventually that i am not effected by a lie...hurt me so that i can learn myself tolerance and laugh at my past as i celebrate my healing...tell me i do not know so i may discover...isolate me so that i can fall in love with my neglected self and than crowd me so that i am challenged to not lose my unique identity...love me so that i can understand how to love for someone else ....give to me and take from me so i can find value in more than that which can be taken or given....sometimes the limitations i experience are because of the walls i have worked so hard to build around me thinking i was keeping something out when really i was locking myself in...so help me break dwn these wals so that i may have more room to grow....

i am only as successful as i am able to evolve past this moment that i am in....

partNurSHIP

So this is just something that pop'd into my mind as i was walking .... i was thinking...again..lol...no but maybe it is bc valentines is so close....maybe i was just in a moment of desire and began to wonder about what it is that i desire..is it a partnership...relationship..love...companion..what.....the word partnership stuck...and than i played the word on repeat in my mind trying to give myself the keys to unlocking this "greatness"....well i heard part...nur..ship....so is it a sacrifice made willingly where u will only be partly nurtured cast away on this "love" ship...partly because now your focus must be split you and your needs have to compete for a leading role or reveal there ability to be a supporting element only acknowledged bc they make "his" needs more relevant ....u are part of a whole and once u agree to this term them when u stand alone u are only a piece to this puzzle...u lose half of urself..u must if u are going to make up one whole when joined to this part..ur "other half"....idk...i am not sure if i agree to leave half of myself on the shore and put the other half on a ship to only be PART nurtured ....so they say word are powerful and what we say is what we live...and these partnerships are missing hug half of what draws ppl to these agreements in the 1st place...and now im thinking again...if i reject partnership than maybe i can except relationship....