success

I feel like i am already everything that i am going to be and than i blink and something changes...i am amazed that i can still change and excited to explore my new self until this self is old and i gain a new ripple to exhaust....i believe my success is based on my ability to evolve and adapt to what is now my new circumstance....challenge me....test my understanding and push repeatedly against my buttons until i am forced to transform into a superior version of myself....who am i if i am not changing..than i was.... and if i become past tense then i am no longer becoming and that is not success...so lie to me so that i may learn eventually that i am not effected by a lie...hurt me so that i can learn myself tolerance and laugh at my past as i celebrate my healing...tell me i do not know so i may discover...isolate me so that i can fall in love with my neglected self and than crowd me so that i am challenged to not lose my unique identity...love me so that i can understand how to love for someone else ....give to me and take from me so i can find value in more than that which can be taken or given....sometimes the limitations i experience are because of the walls i have worked so hard to build around me thinking i was keeping something out when really i was locking myself in...so help me break dwn these wals so that i may have more room to grow....

i am only as successful as i am able to evolve past this moment that i am in....

partNurSHIP

So this is just something that pop'd into my mind as i was walking .... i was thinking...again..lol...no but maybe it is bc valentines is so close....maybe i was just in a moment of desire and began to wonder about what it is that i desire..is it a partnership...relationship..love...companion..what.....the word partnership stuck...and than i played the word on repeat in my mind trying to give myself the keys to unlocking this "greatness"....well i heard part...nur..ship....so is it a sacrifice made willingly where u will only be partly nurtured cast away on this "love" ship...partly because now your focus must be split you and your needs have to compete for a leading role or reveal there ability to be a supporting element only acknowledged bc they make "his" needs more relevant ....u are part of a whole and once u agree to this term them when u stand alone u are only a piece to this puzzle...u lose half of urself..u must if u are going to make up one whole when joined to this part..ur "other half"....idk...i am not sure if i agree to leave half of myself on the shore and put the other half on a ship to only be PART nurtured ....so they say word are powerful and what we say is what we live...and these partnerships are missing hug half of what draws ppl to these agreements in the 1st place...and now im thinking again...if i reject partnership than maybe i can except relationship....

juST THOUGHts

so i am just thinking, DREAMING ... some days i find myself hoping.....
what for ...
I am not sure
i am not thinking, dreaming, or hoping for something or one thing
some times my thoughts capture me..i become a victim to a mind that wonders....
its young...it jumps and kicks and screams things ..the language used is not understood by me....i find myself trying to translate but along the way i become comfortable with not knowing...does it really matter what it is that is being said....i mean if i did understand then i guess i would be forced to reply....but what would i say back and would it be the rt thing....have u ever been a friend that was put in the position to listen and after a conversation of venting ...then its silent...and now u feel obligated to say something.....anything to acknowledge u were listening...but how do u reply without opinion..and is what u have to say important ..... well.. to my thoughts i just listen...no response needed bc what can i say to a mind wondering.....wonder on good mind.....i watch from the outside and experience like im inside...my options are limited yet completely unrestricted.....my thoughts are contradictions and they feed my curiosity....i wonder how can i contradict this new thing...i question endlessly but not for answers just for thoughts.....i run not to finish but just to run...the feeling of the wind wrapped around my entire being and allowing me to move through its powerful force, encouraging my movement with gentle yet intense kisses is a reason to run...the feeling of my body quitting but my mind being stronger willed to push my flesh past its weakness is a reason to run....just to swing my arms back and forth and put my toes to to the task of springing me forward on there tips in effort to thank them for still doing what they do..i run..i think bc i can..and my thoughts tAKE hold of me.........some days i dream endlessly...

but dont ask what i dream....i dont know....my thoughts speak a language of there own...i just listen and let go....