Time has past me by again but in these moments I just want to spot in and say hello to me!

Hello self,
How are you doing? things for the flesh is fine, I haven't been hungry and have been actually doing some exercise..lol..for real, dancing, walking, swimming, and laughing often. I have been doing my best to take care of my flesh but I"m taking a moment to talk to you because I wanted to check in on my spirit, my soul, my inside, the inner self that I neglect because I get lost in time. So I should have said hello spirit, how have you been. As these words appear I am granted an opportunity to talk with you, with me, in these lines a conversation with self (mind, body, and spirit) can come to life. Lonely and alone very different but here I am feeling both; my body is alone and my mind is feeling lonely while my spirit rejects both concepts shining through to whisper to me the direction to walk to find the fruits of life. I am surrounded and have all my senses but I still am afraid to trust me, so things cannot smell good until confirmed by taste and taste is not enough because my taste bugs are dependent on sight and my eyes are known to lie according to touch but how if feels changes based on the way it sounds, this would not be bad if all my senses agreed but because they don't I spend the majority of my time fighting internally. So spirit what do you think, if you were my doctor I'd ask you to cure me, my professor I'd beg you to teach me, my lawyer I'd swear to you I'm not guilty. If you were my man I'd hope you'd understand and then wish you can hold me until we come up with a plan. My flesh contest and tells me to run as fast as I can, my mind wonders what it is I'm running from so here I am standing still as clouds move, rain drops, snow melts, cars zoom, people walk, run, jump, but I am still. Here I wait silent as music blast, drums beat, hands cap, bells ring, mouths whistle, smack, scream, sing but I am silent. This stillness, this silence is a front spirit I'm waiting for guidance ... show up!


So I close my eyes ..
deep breath..
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DEEP BREATH..
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okay I'm fine, happiness and peace is always within..